So after my surgery last year I literally dove head first into planning the Spina Bifida walk and benefit. It was a commitment I had made and of course I didn't want to back out of that. This year I feel bad because I haven't been able to put a ton of effort into it. I'm trying my hardest because it does mean a lot to me, but after watching myself on tv today...I just look tired. I'm exhausted. My mind is running in all these directions and I'm trying to hold it together. I just need to get Through this walk and then all I am doing is concentrating on my family and myself. I feel bad because we have had to shoot down a lot if invites to go be with friends lately, but it's not worth it to be to wear myself out. I also feel guilty because I feel like I'm dragging my family down with me. I'm looking forward to feeling better and having more energy! Most of all I can't wait to work out again! I feel and look like such a slug! I don't know..unfortunately a lot of people don't get it. I'm a people pleaser and have to learn to say "No" because that's the best thing for me.
Hopefully, the walk turns out good! A tad nervous, but hey it's still an accomplishment! Damn you moyamoya!
http://wwlp.com/2014/05/26/5th-annual-walk-n-roll-for-spina-bifida/